IMMUNE

Hmm, if distance makes the heart grow fonder,
dyou thinknits possible to make the heart feel other wise?
Like the total opposite kinda thing..

I dunno what came over me last night
but I was maddd asssss angry.
So angry I felt like punching someone.
Now it's Been awhile since I felt that way...

The name it haunts
the pics the reappearances,it bites..
Yet... Im still standing here
and we all know why...

"if u think she's emo, then i think you shld start reading these"

Hmmm, it's time I put you into some good use
it's been a while and I need major therapy..

Dyou hear me?
Dyou hear me scream n shout in this silence

Dyou see me?
Dyou see me in this bright sunny life

Dyou feel me?
Dyou see me in this puzzle we call face

Dyou?

ms clarity?
not today i guess..

random thoughts

do i miss you?
sometimes i wonder..
i guilt within me..
now i dunno..

it scares me sometimes
that one day i might get up,
finding u cold.

anyways,
raya visiting still went on on tuesday..
looks like tht was the last of it..
then came KUMAR.
he was hilarious as always..

somehow somewhere
i feel lost
but i dunnoo..

its too messed up to put it to words
all too jumbled up..

btw,
why'd u call?

8th October 2009

Got me feeling scrawny in the face
limp in the kness
Shaky in my ego
Frail to my bones
Wrinkled in my skin
And fragile in my heart
Delicate as a whole..
But it seems to vanish whenever youre around
Only to engulf me when you’re gone.

11th October 2009

Was suppose to head dwn for some photo taking
but decided not to in the end..
Instead i went raya visiting.
HAH!
who would have thought,
that the people i once worked with
and now those i call acquaintance
from balam rd to yishun to choachukang to simei and back home. :D

hmm,
my days went terribly wrong without you.
besides the fact that my days revolves around you..
but im glad things a for the better now..
promises i'd keep..
words i'd switch to actions..
and hopefully,from now on,
it'll be okay...

sigh~
dyou see that sunshine?
dyou hear it?
nah, dont think so..

a concoction of mixed emotions..
10 percent pain
10 percent tears
10 percent laughters
10 percent fear
15 percent adore
 5  percent lust
40 percent risk

damn.
it was long awaited for
but when it was here,
it was a total opposite

no excitement
no rushing heartbeat
no feelings through the veins

it was numb
pure numb.

anyway...
weather's been quite a pain
had island cremery, like finally
then down to DB for a movie and fish soup

all things has trails
all things has failed
all efforts gone to waste
all images i cant paste..

It's a question that you've been asking and i would simply reply "Nice". Period.
Yes. Very vague description usually used on an acquaintance instead.
In your words, "My bad!"

Half the people i know would list out their criteria of a dream gf/bf(whatever). And that same half ended up with all the opposites, far from their dream. Which can possibly be a nightmare for some.

What was my criteria?
The vibes that you're giving me. It's a step after impression and before "chemistry" stage. Again, it's pretty hard to explain.
But what is easy, is describing my kental("tough") girlfriend.

**It's her gestures that tickles.

She have an expression that doesn't say a thousand word,
But she create paragraphs describing me in a thousand way.

She doesn't buy me flowers everyday,
But she draws them, so forever it will stay.

She don't need that million dollar face,
Because she owns a million dollar heart and that suffice.

Never have i seen her angry,
Yes, she's patient that way.

Never have she screamed out of anger,
For i only hear screaming of laughter.

She understood me even before having to explain,
She gave me her shoulder before i could cry.
She work in my daily schedule,
And never once did she give out a sigh.
Even when the relationship was haunted,
There she was, staying rooted.

A year together and she's still stammering talking to me.
A year passed and she's still nervous in asking me out.

Beyond nice, beyond humble, beyond patient,
sometimes she makes me want to shout!

In short, she's annoying!**


Happy One year Pearlie!
An anti-climax i may be,
But you'll never know what's up my sleeves(i meant it in a good way).

Come what may, live by day.
Come next month, it'll be another say.
143!143! 143!
(I love pager style, kental style, your style!)


my gift for 1yr annie..
it's the sweetest of things i cld receive from her,lisa.

i miss you..
is tht a crime?

*leave ur keys and i'll change the lock
if i knew you'd be back to bother me*

since when did calling me after ur assignments became a qn?
me: Call me whn ur done..
her: Y?

sometimes i just dont get you...

im only wishing it'll get better by wednesday.

azie sings: Take a step back from the ledge my friend.

nor responses: It's too late, im dangling by a thread.

To choose what i have chosen
Has brought to the position that im in.
And because we all have choices
Though sometimes we tend to make mistakes
We gotta deal with it.

i dont wanna argue no more
cos it takes away the times where i'd be in ur arms..
:(

i got a feeling..
that im being rejected
rejected by the heart of the one i truly adore.

i got a feeling..
im being blocked
blocked by the technology that links us.

i got a feeling..
there's a leakage
leakage in your heart
pierced by your mind through your very veins.

i got a feeling..
i have found the one youve given your heart to
where id do anything to look into their eyes
but only to find that one,
wont give their heart to you..

i got a feeling..
where id close my eyes
and wished tht they were there
and all u can do is wait,
for the day where they would care..